A Note To Peter: When I think of DaVinci- the word genius pops to mind. ... Genius: Hero? Saint? This idea of ... self-fulfillment and self- mastery through achievement and ... the overcoming of obstacles remains the commitment that “eats up” my life ... in the search for perfection- this has been my experience- ... and seems to be yours. . There was a period in my life ... (maybe there still is) when I identified my self-hood in relation to others and ... their “needs-wants-desires” (human or divine). . My desire of caring, concern and the sense of responsibility was and ... remains the expression of my passions which at the core is the way ... I love or refuse to love. . So it right that we, as you mention, suffer. Our sin is great. . We were not promised that we would be happy. ... We were promised that we would Suffer. My experience is like the man that Kafka describes in his “Metamorphous”: ... where I woke up one day and discovered that I had been turned into a giant insect. ... I think like a man- not an insect- only looking like an insect. . I have been coping with this new body for years! . We find ourselves in very strange circumstances throughout life and ... in those strange and absurd situations we must figure out whom we are …and what we are supposed to do. . I have chosen to WORK + STUDY + TRAVEL Only the good robert PS: When is a good time to visit Memphis?